If you are, then you can relate to the story of Marinel Ulang.
Depression was commonplace in Marinel’s world when she was first diagnosed with it in 2017.
Thankfully, things got better somehow. She managed to overcome, but as the pandemic started to raze the country, Marinel lost her job as a freelance bookkeeper while her father was hospitalized due to severe asthma.
Her father was placed under intensive care and was automatically tagged as Person Under Investigation (PUI) for COVID-19 because of his respiratory illness. Jobless with an ailing father and increasing hospital bills, Marinel found herself slowly spiraling into hopelessness once again.
As days went by, her thoughts became darker.
“I was thinking of ways to end it all. When I saw a knife in our house, I was back to the nightmare I experienced in 2017. I was back and I needed help,” Marinel said while holding back tears. Suicidal thoughts started to engulf her.
At the seeming end of her rope, Marinel came across a post about the CBN Asia Prayer Center on The 700 Club Asia Facebook page.
She tried to contact the Prayer Center through Skype and received a call that changed her life.
“I received a call from a prayer counselor. That time, my mind was a mess. But what she told me struck me. She said, ‘God loves you and you’re not alone in your struggles. God will send someone to help you. God is always there for you,” Marinel recalled.
Who would have thought that because of those simple yet assuring words, Marinel will experience God’s love?
It gave her the strength to hold on to life and believe that God has a greater plan for her future.
He surrounded her with people who supplied food and helped her settle their hospital bills. Through God’s grace, her father recovered and is now strong and healthy. Marinel is also blessed with a job that enables her to provide for her loved ones.
It was the glimmer of hope that she’s been waiting for.
“No matter how dark it is, God is there. He will send people to help you. My experience made me realize that God’s love will never forsake us, so why would I be afraid?” Marinel gladly shared.
Do you feel like you are at the end of your rope? Do you feel like you have lost all hope to live anymore? Are you thinking about suicide?
Hang in there.
No matter what you are going through, know that your pain is temporary, and God’s love is permanent. Wherever you are at right now, God wants to meet you because He knows your situation. You may not see it right now, but you have an assurance that He loves and cares for you, and He has greater plans for your future.
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’” (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)
Hope is God’s promise for you.